Doctor Doctor!

Went to the doctor's today to get my back checked out. See, I've been having real stiff shoulders for months now, which then progressed to shoulder aches. And that, rapidly progressed all the way down to my shoulder blades, which hurts. Alot. So, recently it's gotten so much worse and I just won't stand for it anymore. Not whenever it is going to affect my piano playing. My exam is in two and a half weeks! There's practice to be done, scales to memorise, not to mention the stress of exams. I can't be twisting and turning in my seat to try to ease the pain during my exam.

I digress. Anyway, doctor got me to stand up and then started pushing bits of my back, asking if it hurt. Then she came to the spinal cord and pushed in on it. Really, all I was thinking to myself was "It's the bone, obviously it's gonna hurt. Duh." But decided to tell her that it hurt anyway. So, verdict was. "I think it's your posture which is causing you all those problems." Damn. That's not good. Especially when I do try to stand straight and lie on my back to sleep. Well at first I lie on my back to sleep because it was a means to try to ease the pain. Now it's a necessity because it's simply too painful to lie on my side. Back to the point, I just can't understand why I'm getting back pains because of my posture of all things. I mean, it's not as if I stand like that:

She prescribed anti-inflammatory tablets for me to take when the pain strikes. I took it more than an hour ago and it has yet to help the stiffness. There were a few suggestions..yoga, pilates, and swimming, which I completely understand 'cos all that arm movement has got to loosen up those back muscles. But one thing though..I still can't swim.. And let's face it. Am I really going to commit to those classes even if I do gather the courage to sign up for one?

Oh! I am also being referred to get physiotherapy. Which means. Back massage!!! Yippeee! Let's just hope it doesn't end up like this:

I am expecting no spa. But still, a back massage is in order me thinks. Know what's the best thing? I'm a student here so it's all free! Muahaha, my evil plan has worked. (Only joking)

Last Day of School

Like before, my pea-sized brain honestly can't quite comprehend the enormity of what just happened yesterday. Yesterday, was my last ever day of school. That excludes coming in for exams. But still, I can't believe that two years have passed just like that.

Yesterday to me was a blur of laughter, "yeeooooos" and tears. Tears came from me. *blush* Like that big emotional softie I still am, I cried at speeches, and at goodbyes with me friends.

The day before my first day of school, I was so nervous about it. Things worry me. Like, "What if I fail at everything??" and "What if I get bulied?" and "What if I don't make any friends?" Jordan made things lighter by saying "Let'th go to thchool" with a lisp and that made me laugh and feel better. But at that point in time, as I put on my spanking new school uniform and walked in to school, I truly thought I would be following Jordan around for the whole two years in school. I got lost easily, don't know anyone and am painfully shy.

In less than two months, I've got myself a boyfriend (I know, I still can't believe it either) who turned into my best friend and confidant. Then, I made a few REALLY great friends who I shall never forget. To make things better, I was excelling at Maths (of all subjects, I struggled at Maths most at O levels. How Ironic). AND, I made so many friends and got so many party and sleepover invites I eventually had to decline some because I had to concentrate on my studies. Finally, after a few years of waiting, I feel accepted for who I am. I got to be who I want to be on the inside.

That is what it means to me. And in spite of my rapidly gaining weight and mass, I was happy. It is still so hard to believe how I am so easily accepted into this year group. And I truly thank them for it. For without their warmth, I would hate school.

Well, yesterday is the last day of school. And I would just like to thank everyone I know for being part of a wonderful and amazing two years in Northern Ireland. Even though I wouldn't say it to your faces for fear of dissolving into blubbering sobs, I will miss every single one of you.

Radical!

What's this? An iPod Touch? I finally got it! I can proudly annouce that last Thursday, I am the proud owner of a spanking new, 8GB iPod Touch. What with studies and all, I apologise for not telling you about this till a week from then. But! Picture time! (only one)*sigh* Isn't it just the most amazing thing ever? I can surf the net on it and download applications for free!! Well, only a few applications. Guess who's been addicted to looking at the application page greedily for more free apps? (me in case you didn't catch on)

Been going to fan art sites such as Elfwood just to see artistic images. Great art simulates the mind you know (yea right). But I actually stumbled across a few amazing pictures. They are so brilliant I can literally stare at them all day. Here's one of them.
Most of those pictures are drawn and then computer touched up. But still, I wouldn't have been able to do that and all I can do it sit and drool at the screen.

Note: For those who are great big scaredy cats like me, I suggest viewing some of the photos in the day because some of the pictures can be quite sinister. As the name 'fantasy' suggests, there will be vampires and all that. And well, you know what a vampire eats. Or drinks.

Something Good?

This may be a little late. And it may even be total gibberish to others. But in the past few days I have come to realised just how blurred the lines of right and wrong have come to be from the time I was a child. Things were sooo much easier whenever I was five. Everything was absolute, in either white or black. But as we get older, experience more things, and learn more, bits of grey start to creep in. Until the world of morality is no longer either black or white, but varying shades of grey.

I mean, in cartoons and whatnot, the good person is ALWAYS good looking. The baddies are ALWAYS ugly. And the goodness ALWAYS prevail, most of the time with the baddies' demise. Then come the tricky bit whenever you get older. What if. What if...the baddie has his own reasons for doing so? What if, it is a truly justifiable reason? If you were the good guy, would you have shown forgiveness and compassion in the face of the bad guy? Or you would quite happily lope their heads off.

Like I said, it is tricky and yes, I do realise the more I type, the more neurotic I seem. But oh well. That's just the way life is. And really, all us mere mortals can do is muddle through the best we can trying to keep the moral values we learnt in childhood close to heart. So that in the end, when we die, we can die with the satisfaction that everything has been done the best to your limits. Yet, it's not always that easy.

Like the Earth for example. Obviously what with pollution and whatnot the earth doesn't look like this ------>

Why would she? Right at this very minute I am emitting carbon dioxide simply by using the computer. Even if I decide to save electricity and therefore save the Earth, light heating and running water are essential. Especially heating. In a climate like Northern Ireland, you can quite easily die out there in the cold if there isn't proper shelter and heat. So what now? This is a huge grey patch. See what I mean?

Oh well. What will be will be.

Oops I Did It Again..

Oops. I did it again didn't I? I have left this blog to die for what? The fifth? Sixth time? Awwk well. What matters is, I'm back and I'm back with a vengeance. :P

Anyway, today the photos of frost in November will be on exhibition as promised. Since we are doing this in chronological order, I might as well throw in the paperwhites that I planted in Februrary (they are long dead now). Then, a couple of shots of my corsage from my formal. I had such a great time! Got all dressed up in a proper long dress and high heels and everything. It was perfect. *sigh* And also, photos from the recent health promotion campaign I had to do for Health and Social Care coursework. It was so much fun and I really enjoyed myself. :)

First up, photos from the frost on that cold, cold day. Obviously it's so much warmer now. Lots of occasionally sunshine. Yippee!

Then, the photos of the paperwhites. There are so many 'cos I took one of each cluster of little flowers. I loved them though they smelled a little sickening after a while. But still, aren't they just so pretty!

Corsage pictures! Ryan had to get me a corsage before the formal. It was so much more than I imagined! Mind you the rose looks a little dead but that's only because I took those photos the next day. To see my formal photo go there. I don't know how long it's going to be there so go quick! Yes yes, I have put on weight. Trying to get it off and hope I succeed. Fingers crossed!

Here are the pictures from the health promotion campaign for Health and Social Care. Well, we had to take photos anyway so here they are! :D

Aaaaand! a little bonus for you. It's only a few seconds long but so funny. Did that whenever I was booored.

Anyway, hoped you enjoyed this lengthy post and hope I got everything up to date. Byee!