Sad and worried

I'm feeling kinda down, and very very worried about the Free Hugs Campaign tomorrow. Mom doesn't know. So cousins! SHHHHHHHHHHH!!

But what if no one comes up to hug me? Darn. I'll just suck it up and get on with it. Like AK said, if they don't, they're the one who's wrong in the head. Not me. What's there not to like about hugs right?

Well well...

My body is not co-operating with me, neither is my emotional self. I fell and twisted my ankle in Malaysia. In addition to that, my emotional self is telling me that I should be with Ryan and that I should go go GO! get him.

Uh huh.

I hate it when I'm all issue-y like that. I like it better when I'm free and stuff. So...I shall pray for everything to sort itself out. I mean, I'm so pathetic! I should stop listening to my heart. As much as I want to, I have to stop. Cos my heart is too soft. She gets me into trouble and pain. Fine, I wouldn't have had such an amazing time in NI if I didn't listen to my heart and got together with Ryan. But then again, what if I ignored it? What if...I didn't get together with him? We might've just been friends and been much happier now. I guess. But would I have been happier? That's the question.

Nevermind. There's no sense in dwelling in the past. Now I shall just try to move on the best I can. I did! But he f***ed my mind up. Seriously, it ain't fair. But I shouldn't have been so dumb to think he'd still love me that way. Damn damn damn.

Tis all my fault so it is. I seriously want to cry :(

Damn I wish I would stop being such a crybaby :'(

Totally Miss NI

Found these two things when I was tidying my table today.

And after reading that card and sniffing the perfume I cried.

That card was given to me by Auntie Carol on the day I left. Even now I still cannot read it without crying.

And sniffing the perfume brought be back to school mornings when I would spray myself with it and look forward to school knowing that my special someone will be there with a huge hug waiting for me.

I seriously miss NI and I'm getting more and more depressed. :(

Popeye's on Google!

He's Popeye the sailorman!~ Toot toot!

I'ma Crap Teacher

I am such a crap teacher, but instead of typing out a huge passage, I've decided to upload the video I made instead. It's on Youtube too ^_^