White Lies?

Well everyone, I have news for you. I....

Have changed.

Big news. Everyone changes everyday. Your skin cells shed off, you lose a few milligrams that no one notices, etc. But this is a big change! And I've only recently noticed it. Like last week. And as most of you can tell from the title, it's about lying.

Yes, lying. I mean as most people would know by now, ('cos I wouldn't stop going on about it), I'm from Singapore and moved here last year. With great moves comes great changes I tell you, I s*** you not. First up, I've more or less stopped swearing. Now I only swear in extreme moods of anger, annoyance, and pain. Which is not very often.

Second up, my temper has kind of fizzed out? But really, I lose my temper less often I find. Or I lose my temper whenever there is something that is annoying me and is still there grating on my nerves. Like nails on a chalkboard. Ugh.

Something you shouldn't see on tv now, not with the recession.

Last but not least, it's lying. Not lying down on the bed. No no, I like lying down on the bed, especially when it's to sleep. I mean lying to people. Opposite of truth. Whenever I was in Singapore, before I came over, I wouldn't have minded lying to anyone (sorry Mommy). I could tell a lie straight into anyone's face and feel a slight twinge of conscience which is quickly smothered. But then I have now come to appreciate all the I have, and I have come to completely trust everyone and have gotten used to the complete trust people have in me in return.

Quite literally, I find it incapable to lie. Told a lie on Saturday, and it's still torturing me. Told another lie of the same sort today, and I'm at breaking point. Seriously, blubbering pile of tears. In simple terms, it can be solved by telling the truth right?

Wrong.

'Cos I've already made a pact with someone to not tell anyone else. I can keep a secret. Ask my friends. But whenever someone says something along the lines of "So hey, what is xxxxxx doing now?" And I have to lie, I feel so bad protecting that person.

From now on, actually, from a few weeks (days?) ago, I have decided to be the best person I can be. No lying, an occasional drink, definitely no drunken dancing, no smoking, (trying to) not swear. The works. Because when I die, I want to be able to know that I have died making something of myself, even though it probably wouldn't be visible to anyone else.

Talk about School

Today I went into school even though I didn't have any exams. Why?
For him. So that he wouldn't feel lonely while waiting for his exam to come on.

And also because Jordan's going into school for his exam too and it'll be convenient to get a lift down to school, study/sleep/talk in the common room, then get another lift home. How handy. Hee hee.

Cat's got to be fed soon. Cooking for just the two of us and doing the laundry and all isn't too much hassle. Just gets a little tiring sometimes. Now whenever I go to bed, I either conk out immediately, or just lie awake for ages because of the sheer amount of things going through my head. But surprisingly, I just keep going and going and going.

Good for me! Now I will have more energy to do even more housework. Quite surprisingly, this feels like playing house when I was young. Only in real time, doing real things. Remember that game? Where you may have fought with your friend over who is to be the man or the woman and no one wants to be the man? Where you sit and pretend to cook coloured paper and lovingly feed it to your 'husband' or anyone who is willing to entertain you and pretend to 'eat' it.

Yea, that one.

Ahh, good times.

Phone Is Back!

Yay yay yay yay yay! My phone is back and working again! Yes, while everyone else is quite obliviously going through their lives I've been trying to dry out my phone with the battery and sim card out, and a packet of desiccant sitting on top of it. All the while, trying to turn it on everyday when I wake up in the morning and before I go to bed at night.

I was such a nervous wreck without my phone. It feels like you're going out without any clothes on at all. And over here, you'd quite literally die from the cold if you do that. Yes! Phone is back, and me and Jordan have settled into a routine of sorts as to the cooking and everything. Which is good. So glad that I know I can cook to feed people when I have to. It is a lot more nerve wrecking to feed other people especially when you have such low standards of food as me. I enjoy good food but I can quite easily munch on a piece of dry toast and like it too. So yes. My standard is so low, a baby can crawl over it.

Exams are coming up! But I'm starting to be sucked in by the television. Without a doubt, Friends and Scrubs are my favourite sitcoms of all time. Classic. They are probably the only sitcoms that make me laugh out loud. And the characters are so lovable!

Now off to read manga comics before feeding the cats. ^___^ So glad my phone is back.

Still Not Fixed

My phone still isn't working! Sadness.

My Poor Phone!

My poor phone accidentally fell into the toilet bowl today! What a waste! And I didn't really know what to do, so being the idiot that I am, I turned it on and off lots of times. Then put it in rice. I only did it because someone on the internet said it'll work quickly when you put it in rice. But it was there for a few hours charging and still didn't work. Then I checked again on the internet and found I shouldn't be turning it off and on, or charging it.

I sure hope that now, with the battery and sim card lying out on the towel works. Don't see another new phone coming my way.