btw

by the way, for those who didnt already know, my real name is shuhao but i call myself amber cause...i like that name? and if you dont want to wait for the buffer, it's much faster at youtube. here is the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zn2J_RDhnTU

k. i'm really going now. bye

Amber Pacific

this is my favourite song...

sunday, bloody sunday

today i was pissed off by my dad three times. first time was in the morning when he was fetching me to tuition. then, was when we came back from visiting my maternal grandfather(it means my mom's dad) in ang mo kio hospital. he was asking me if i need timing to call lance. yes, i did call lance at the hospital. but he shouldnt keep asking. it pisses me off. when i dont answer his question, it means that i'm in no mood to talk. but he kept asking. so in the end i had to use my "pissed off voice" on him. i really dont want to use it but anyway, it had no effect. i was spared only when i got off the car. then, during dinner, i was watching a few recordings from tv and my dad suddenly barged in and asked me to off the tv and get out of the room. i kept quiet and do as i was told. i'm juz too tired to say or do anything.

i'm going to remember today as a day of cramps. girls, you know awt i'm talking about, guys, you wouldnt want to know. during tuition it was unbearable even with the panadol extra i took few minutes earlier, then in the later part, i felt better.

today we had to write a compo about how parents protect their children too much. that is true, many parents defend their children when teachers are disciplining the children. they will interfere and go "they didnt do anything wrong" or say "they're just kids". that is just plain wrong. in the past, it is the grandparents who interfere with the parents discipling of the kids. now, in addition to grandparents, we now have parents to do that. you want your children to grow up into "disciplined and responsible adults" then let them take "responsibility" for their actions! dont keep shielding them from the reprimanding of their teachers when your children do something wrong. sure, your kids will love you for it now when you shield them from their teachers by threatening them with complaining to the principal (my classmates know who i'm talking about). but in the long run, your kids are the ones who suffer the most loss. they will not grow up into "disciplined and responsible adults" like you want them to but turn into "amock and wild adults" ok. i'm exagerating abit here but it is possible. bah...i have nth to say about it.

there is this video in the previous post. it is done by this band amber pacific, check out te lead singer's hairstyle, it looks just like jordan's, except the lead singer's one is curlier. it may take quite awhile to buffer but please be patient, it is really good. here are the lyrics:

"Gone So Young"

I never dreamt it'd be this way

I've lost any chance for me to say

To say that I miss you, say that I love you

Will someone please tell me I'm okay

I wasn't prepared for what's to come

A life made of memories gone so young

And now I'm regretting all I've done

But in your heart know that I'm with you all along

Wherever you go, I will be waiting

Whenever you call, I will be there

Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright

I'm in your heart tonight

I never thought that this could go

And take me away from all I know

And leave me to think I'm on my own

But your love will take me, you were the one.....

Who sat through nights

You held me tight

And made sure I'm okay

And I thank you for the love you gave to me

Wherever you go, I will be waiting

Whenever you call, I will be there

Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright

I'm in your heart tonight...

Tonight...

Wherever you go, I will be waiting

Whenever you call, I will be there

Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright

Wherever you go, I will be waiting

Whenever you call, I will be there

Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright

And if I should fall, I know you're waiting

And if I should call, I know you're there

If ever you cry just know I'm in your heart tonight...

I'm in your heart tonight.

so there. this is all for today. actually, i think it's too much. are you all bored yet? i asked jeremy to help me to take some photos of the necklace and send it to me. i received it but i'm unable to upload it. oh well, i'll try tomorrow. byebye.

finally...

FINALLY i'm able to use the com. let me explain. this is rather complicated. hmm...u see, my mom has installed this program in the com which tracks how long i use my com. so i onli have 4 hours a week. so this week i had over-used my time cos my cuzin from ireland has been online and i spent quite alot of time talking to him as well as blogging. so i over-used the time.

anyway, to put u up to date, lance made me a necklace for my birthday!! i was so touched by that...he gave it to me on 2nd august which wasnt too bad...when he gave me the necklace, i was so quiet that he thought i didnt like it. but actually i was so touched that he actually made a necklace, i was afraid that if i open my mouth, i would start crying. in the end, i told him "if you care for me, why dont you tell me instead of letting me guess all the time? i thought you totally forgot about my birthday..." then i cried. yea yea...ok, i'm a crybaby and am easily touched. i admit. but how many guys would actually make a necklace for their girlfriends? sure, he had the penndant and chain to start with, but he used pliers to open the wire and then close it back. see? that shows how much work was put into it. when he told me "i made a necklace for you", the first thing that came into my mind was string and beads. but this was much more. this involves strength.

then, on friday, i made a HUGE bowl of jelly for jia hwee and cheryl. one each. i sort of anticipated that they both need big bowls of it as many of our classmates will come swarming over to take a bite. as it turns out, they did. good thing i brought extra spoons too. i was so scared that they would go "eeewww" or something cos to me, it looks horrible. i take pride in my cooking. everything has to look good, taste good and easy to eat. when i made the jelly, i was adding sugar again and again because i didnt have a weighing scale and had to roughly estimate how much sugar is needed by taste. i kept adding and adding until the bag of sugar was almost gone.(the bag had less than half left to start with. so those who ate it, dont worry about the sugar content. it wasnt THAT much) then i stopped adding as i still have to make another bowl fof jelly for seowpeng the next friday. everyone really enjoyed the jelly. i was sooo happy! at home, there was no one else to comment on my food other than my sisters. so it was really great to hear from others.

this morning i had a spat with my mom, cause i was really pissed off that i couldnt even watch a cd in peace. meiyi just lent me the cd on friday. it is the story of merlin. quite a few years ago i saw it, but wasnt able to finish watching it due to time constraints. so this time i was determined as well as extremely eager to watch it once and for all to find out wat really hapened in the movie. first, i watched it upstairs, where my father is, but he was doing something so he sort of asked me to buzz off. then i went downstairs to watch, but my sister was doing her work and was very distracted by the tv(she even stopped eating her cake). so my mom asked me to stop watching. i was pretty angry my then, so i asked if i could go on to the internet to use the com, but she has not extended my time yet. so i was like "how come you have not extended it yet? i told you on thursday right? all the way up till now you have not even touched it." then she burst out on me too she was all "who does the things around here huh? all you know is to eat drink and play! you live like pigs!".

hey. i am hurt. i DO do my work and tidy up my table once in a while and if things get to messy, i will tidy it up. and i do my homework now, which is a really good improvement to me. i cant believe she didnt see that. it's as if i dont exist to her anymore. true, i may not really be that close to them, for all they know, they may just be adults who i call mommy and daddy out of habit, but i live with them and it's really hard living with someone who thinks that you are someone from the bottom of the rubbish pile. once, they even told me that maybe they picked the wrong baby during their stay at the hospital. maybe i really wasnt their child at all. i sometimes wish that they are not my parents, but i dont say it out loud do i?

ah well. sooner or later it will all blow off and it will be many of the small quarrels we have had. yepz. as for me and lance, obviously, and practically everything outside home is perfect. my class, my school(i love the way i get free time in between classes), and my social life. balance, balance, balance. lalala. i have nothing more to say really, except that my cuzin from ireland has a fat-ass ego. look at what he wrote in the tag box. yes, he is my twin fromNI. as wat he said was true. but he doesnt have to go "arent you all lucky, you ca, mail me..." spare me from your ego, jordan, it's damn big!! hahax. ok, gotta go, bye.

happy birthday to me

hi everyone! today is my birthday! to celebrate, i'm going to sing all of you a song...juz jk. i got lots of presents today. thankyou seowpeng for the pandan flavoured pizza, meiyi for the earrings, huizhi and elvis for the chocalates, seowpeng(again), jiehui and jia hwee for the cards and my little sister for the decorative tape. here are my presents:

chocolates from elvis and hui zhi decorative tape(behind) and earrings(the flower shaped ones)

today was very special. langston was funny...he said "happy birthday shuhao!" 3 times. once in chemistry lab, once in physics lab and once in the canteen. ya. then seowpeng was explaining to me about the pizza and why it looks so bad. dont worry seow peng, it tastes ok. really. you cant stop your mom from using the tomato paste to fry prawns and the cheese from freezing. i most of it and still feel fine. and your card is really nice. then i received an e-mail from my aunt in ireland. it read: to someone very special i hope you have had a wonderful birthday. lots and lots of love aunty carol xoxoxox

so sweet right? then when i came back, i watched some tv then went to sleep. sure, i wasted the whole afternoon away, but i feel great and that's wat counts. i've been really lucky in school these two weeks. last week i forgot to bring my social studies textbook, but by some bazzar stroke of luck, managed to escape the wrath of mdm sue. this week i forgot to bring my social studies textbook again. then today she let us watch a part of this movie called "in the name of the father". as a result we didnt use the textbook. the movie wasnt that bad, from wat i can see. the beginning was really good. there was this contrast. after a few man walked into a restaurant, the restaurant exploded. then there was this gothic sounding music. at least to me, then a man started saying "*blank blank* in the name of the father" i didnt quite catch wat he said before that. that was a contrast. the movie was about the protestant-catholic conflict in northern ireland, where my cuzin is living. so it's really fun, cos i get to know how it is over there now. my aunt said it has settled down alot and only ocassionally, someone will start a riot. but they call those people "thick-headed" meaning stupid, for those who didnt already know. just saying all these fyi.

so all in all, non-social life wise, everything went perfectly well. btw, i did not celebrate with lance. so stop asking. it really hurts. i'm 16 already. i should probably stop dreaming and expecting so much out of my relationship and let it run it's course by itself. lance already knows i have this blog. but i'm not sure if he come here yet. so yea...can i ask all of you a favour? at least all of you in my class who are reading this. can you stop asking me about lance and stuff? cos i sometimes really dont want to talk about it. thx.

alright. that is all for today. i also received lots of photos from around the world and will upload them some day. so thx for everything evryone. btw, jordan, i'll send the parcel tmr. k. bye