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well well well. today is saturday already. and my exam is in about two days :( been studying sooooo much. and it is actually creepy how much work i have done in the past few days. i have finished making notes for two modules (17 chapters) of computing in 4 days. phew.

anyway, i'm going to introduce u to a newcomer, and promise not to laugh at her just because she looks different cos she is not feeling well today. let me introduce u to..myra [my-rah] the pyramid. as u can see she's not in very good shape. she's studied so much today that her brain feels like it's bursting out of her head. too much revision i guess. she normally looks alot better than this. oh well.

she's the product of my creative juices and pencil, colour pencils and pen. haha.

so if all goes well (meaning if i can be hardworking enough to draw and take pictures) then u would see alot more of myra in the near future. what with study leave and the summer holidays being so near that u can almost touch it.

i know i'm supposed to study on study leave but then i have been studying loads. and after each day my brain has not exactly fully recovered from the aftermath of chaos that studying has ravaged. it feels so light, yet so swollen. not only my brain. my body has trouble recovering from the aftermath of study too. after that much writing (i'm talking about 5 hours straight and then teeny breaks) the big big muscle on my right hand is starting to hurt everytime i rest my weight on it. and then my biceps are hurting too.

i'm sorry for complaining on this blog..u people deserve much more cheerier posts than this. lol

but then again once computing (i think i'm getting quite interested in it) is over, (on the 16th of may) then we can move on to much better and happier things! like chaucerian old english the Miller's Tale where sanctity of marriage and the morals of the church are poked fun at. and Spies by Frayn, where we see the process of the initiation into adulthood a few years too early with pain and betrayal through the eyes of a ten year old boy. and All My Sons but Arthur Miller, where we quite helplessly watch the facade of a 'perfect' American family being slowly peeled away to reveal a family who have no sense of responsibility for the wider world. drama and suspense takes place in there to a shattering climax, where the guilty father eventually killed himself, unable to face the ugly truth.

yay!

OR we can talk about mechanics, vectors, moments, impulse, particle on a horizontal plane, etc etc. is that cheerful? haha

just joking. i'm not really going to post my notes here. u people have enough school work to worry about >.< (i'm actually going to just surf the net and blog hop, my life is not THAT sad. lol)

as my English teacher would have said..

"Is it break time yet?"
-David Park (writer and teacher who wants to be retired)

homesick

what a time to be homesick :( [i drew that pic myself]

remember once jinjun's personal message on msn was "if a picture speaks a thousand words, then music paints a thousand pictures." i'm going to say "smells bring back an infinite amount of memories"

homesickness..i have no idea when it hit me but i guess it has always been there. dont ask me how and why. i just know now that it has. but as for this particular strong bout of homesickness, it started from a smell.

yes, a smell. u didnt read that wrong. (warning below is a terribly descriptive episode of how the smell came about so scroll down a little bit more if u dont want to read it)

well i was sitting on the chair revising in my room. and then i lifted myself up on the handles to stretch and get my legs uncrossed and one of the handles of the chair broke. and with the breaking, came the distinctive smell of wood and varnish. and that brought back the memories of whenever i was younger, more innocent and a whole load stupider. it brought me back to my dad's shop. the office, in fact. during chinese new year which i wouldnt be able to celebrate properly in the next few years.

just, the smell was exactly the same as the 'office' in the upstairs part of my dad's shop where me and my sisters and an occasional cousin used to sleep in whenever my parents and auntie(s) and uncle(s) work at sticky mass of merry makers walking down the streets at snails pace all night long. till about 6-7am in the morning.

and that brought about a bout of homesickness. and with the homesickness, it brought back the smallest, and most mundane images. such as the view from the bus stop opposite my house, and the view from the bus stop just down the street. and my bedroom. and basically most of which photos i took during my visit back to s'pore in oct 07.so it seems that i have tried to appreciate and commit to memory every single second, every minute of my trip there. so much so that my head is swimming with random images in my head. not that it is a bad thing. just confusing. i dont think my mind has actually mentally accepted that i have moved here for a few years. my mental state whenever those images come into my head is "oh, i can easily take a bus there, it's fine." it's as if i havent accepted the enormousness of just what i have taken upon myself.

and i cant be homesick. well, i can. but the circumstances dont allow me to. i've got an exam which i hardly know anything about in less than 4 days. well 3 days after today is over.

it hasnt affected me that much so far.. just an occasional bout of tears now and again that's all.

i just dread the time when i have to make a choice as to whether to go back to s'pore or stay here. a huge, huge part of me wants to go to s'pore. but a teeny part of me knows that i have already gotten attached to northern ireland. the falling petals in spring, the riot of colours and crunchy leaves in the autumn, the crispness of the winter and the scorching hot sun yet dry air in the summer. i dont want to make this huge mistake in my life of choosing the wrong place to stay. and i dont want to blame myself about the choice i have made if things ever go bad in life. i do want to go back to s'pore and stay eventually. cos that is where i have spent all of my childhood and almost all of my life to date.

so there u are. the thoughts that have been plaguing me for ages. and thankyou for listening.

quote of the day:

"The touble with the rat race is that even if you win, you're still a rat"
-Lily Tomlin(American actress, comedian, writer and producer)

links to my photos!

this is the link to ALL of the photo in my bebo. u can view it as much as u want from there.

for those who specifically want to see the photos from my friend's party, (remember the post with like 70 pics?) these links are from that party with captions and all in it :D

sarah's party part 1
sarah's party part 2
sarah's party part 3

and for those who are a wee bit curious as to what my bebo profile looks like, here it is!

just another short post ^_^ i'm so blog-happy today lol

pics pics

dont really have much to talk about. so i'll just post random pics from the past few days. even weeks! [eek] this should be good.. lol

just random items.pancake(i cut the face in!)roses (i made them!)seats on the bus
the yellow submarine. (listen to the song by The Beatles)
my english teacher (ok, she's not an item lol. i took it secretly ><)

and any of u curious about ryan's b-day present? here it is!! tadaaa (that is halfway done. and so the full present is full of stars ^_^)then face warps..and then, pics of meee..( i am NOT a camwhore)
on mock interview night..
me on normal days..

and then pics of ryan. :P haha!(he's not gonna trust me with the camera after this..)HAHAHAHAHAHA!! (i drew it in)he pinky promised me something :P (forgot what it was)

next. pics of me and ryan.

in a random field.in rock city diner..
in private study..in english class..

well that's about it lol. that was sooo funny. and i shall end this post with my fav pic of all. THIS!!! ^ *points above* that's all for this sunday. byebyeeeeee

quiz!

took this quiz from jinjun cos i dont know what to write about -.- so here goes.

1. Does it matter to you if your bf or gf smokes?
yea i dont really like smoking. it stinks!
2. How about drinking?
drinking is ok..just dont get drunk.
3. Do you want someone you cant have?
not really. what is the point?
4. If someone liked you right now,would you want them to tell you?
nopez nopez
5. Whats your fave sport?
tennis!!! (lol!)
6. It's Sat night,u're home alone.. what do you do?
get onto msn. tonight is saturday night and i'm here on my blog. but also chatting :D
7. Can you do the splits?
nopez nopez. i'm about 5 inches off the ground though. still trying to get to do it
8. Do you like roller coasters?
never been on one.. *embarrassed*
9. When's the perfect time to have a bf/gf?
anytime u are not TOO stressed lol
10. If you could date any celebrity,who would it be?
i dont want them lol. cos they are not 'ping fan ren' [ordinary people]
11. Whats ur favourite band?
the band i used to play in CCHY, and a few other rocky ones
12. what are you doing this weekend?
nothing much, homework, finishing coursework, practice papers, and a trip to nanny's
13. whats your fave restaurant?
it's got to be those which have ala carte buffet and steamboat like sizzler, sakura. and sakae sushi is also nice. so is crystal jade ^_^
14. Do you usually fall for the right or wrong girl/boy?
normally the right person will be the person u eventually marry and stay with for the rest of ur life. that's what i think anyway. lol so u will fall for the right guy eventually
15. Which do you prefer,beach or the mountains?
hmm..i love the scenery from the mountains but it's so hard to get up..and so scary. and i like the beach too. so the beach :D
16. What kind of phone do you have?
sony ericsson T250i
17. Computer or laptop?
laptop!!
18. How old are you gonna be on your next birthday?
18 on the 1st of august
19. What should you be doing right now?
studying..doing my computing coursework
20. Are u attracted to girl/boy that smoke?
not at all nopez nopez
21. What do you do when you're at home?
get onto msn. have a nice relaxing time
22. Whats your favorite subject?
english. cos of mrs thorpe and mr parks! and the person who sits next to me during lessons
23. what's the best thing that happened to you?
coming over to NI

so that's all for now :D nothing to type about already! lalala byeeeeee