freaky friday

my tights have got a hole in them!!!!!! it wasnt actually that bad. it was like 1/4 of that size and each attempt to try to hide it just made it double the size. last attempt brought in the wrath of the dreaded ladders and that's when i decided to stop. lol. how i got it was through the file. i kinda hooked it on my tights by accident and then this long fluffy thread came out. and i asked sarah how to get rid of it. she said to hold on to it and try to break to string. i did, and half of it broke off, of sorts. but left it fluffier than ever. not satisfied, pig headed me decided to give it another try and then the string is gone. yay! but the material held by the string was pulled apart and there was a hole the size of ur big toe tip. yes, not ur fingertip, ur big-toe-tip.

then i got to computing and asked other people wat to do. then stacey said to go to the toilets and pull down my skirt(to make it long) and try to stretch my tights as long as possible to get the hole above the skirt level. but as i pulled and pulled(it has a limit to elasticity u know?), it ripped and left the ladders hanging there. so i left it and felt really embarassed about it. luckily it was liike my last class. eventually right, i figured no one would want to look at my thighs so i walked with my chin up to the bus and walked really quickly too. as a result,

GOT A SEAT IN THE BUS!!!:)
this photo was taken yesterday when i was doing my homework and basically feeling bored, i looked out of the window and saw thousands of flies reflected by the light flying around. it's nice seeing like little tiny specks of light moving about. but then when u realise what it actually is(in this case flies), ur fascination turns to disgust. how like the whole theme of life. things are never wat they seem. a yr ago, i can see my future as clear as day all the way until i die. now i cant see anything in my near future. will i ever have kids before 30? will i find anyone for that matter?

i'm such a sad person. lol :P
louise gave me this link to a cool webbie with like really good photos. this one above took my breath away. now that is wat i call a good photo. i absolutely love sunflowers. maybe nxt yr i'll be able to get a seed and grow a single stalk in my room. that would be soooo cool. even though i have got voilets, a red-leaved plant and a bean growing in my room... hmm...dum de dum...here's another flash of my leg!! *everyone runs awaaaay screaming*
wat? there's nothing wrong with it. except it's green and shiny... :S. so, when i got home, had a few minutes of photo taking spree of myslef. and this is my best shot. yippee! enjoy!

reminiscing again!

just came back from talking to auntie carol about things to do and bring from s'pore. so here is a list!

to bring from northern ireland:
1) joint pills for daddy
2) christmas candy for baby and yinghao (they are so cute and small! ><)
3) chewing gum for everyone! (the good kind)
4) oh yes! there are like shaped pasta which are really funny. will get some for the kids. just for a laugh.
5) and...wat else...i dont think there is anymore

to bring from s'pore
1) yeo's soyabean milk and grass jelly
2) my wallet
3) CDs!!!!
4) gatorade
5) my old camera
6) coloured permanent markers
7) colour pens.
8) i dont think there is anything else...

yepz yepz, so i'm going to be busy busy busy! and i hope things get better...yepz and hope can meet all my friends! yay!

kiddies and teachers

yippee! know where i'm going for my 1st placement for health and social care. i'm going to work like a class assistant for a class of 6-yr-olds. cool cool! and then today i got shouted at by one teacher and almost got my mp4 confiscated.

got shouted at in private study by one teacher cos she had just finished talking about not being allowed to have personal reading during private study cos we have to revise our work. and i wasnt listening and just got a book out and kidan gave her a cheeky smile and opened it. she freaked and went "AMBER WILL YOU OUT YOUR BOOK AWAY AND TAKE OUT A SUBJECT RELATED BOOK!" and i was like "oh no...she's angry". ah well.

then during lunch later i was letting sarah listen to some music cos she said it was ok(cos someone told her it's ok so long as it is'nt a phone). then we walked into the school building cos it was cold and this teacher came up and took my mp4 awaayyyyyyyyyyy!!! and in my brain i was like 'hey! wat r u doing!!!!???? let go of my baby!' and i told him sarah said it was ok and he said well it's not. meanwhile i was sneakily taking my mp4 back and winding up the wires and all nicely. then he went "obviously u're new so u dont know and i'll let u go this time" and i was all phew-y and near cried. that mp4 means loads to me. i paid for it with my own pay!!!

lol really rainy day today and ran in the rain a few times. had dance for games. it was great and actually got abit of a work out. so goodie!! and got my hair spray for nicky's party but i dont know if i shd go as a vampire anymore. i saw like fix-on vampire teeth but i dunno if i got the guts to wear it there. . . . . . .

oh well. will talk to a few people and see. was so excited about that too but dunno about that now. jsut kind lost my guts after looking at them.

sorry for not posting any photos. this thing is just not working....

innocence

for those in s'pore maybe u will remember those days when we would run ard laughing at "cuckoo bird" (male genitials). i was on the bus this morning and i suddenly rememebred this girl in my neighbourhood who came from america. and there was this point in time when me and my sisters would go visit her every weekend to see her and her poodles. well then they're neutered, or spayed, whatever it was for female dogs for them to not have pups...

so anyway, i remembered this time when me and my sisters were sitting on that girl's nice big squishy sofas with her dogs rolling around on our laps and my little sister (then probably about 6/7) playing with them. then one of the dogs rolled over exposed her....erm....*squirms with embarassment* bum.

there was an embarassed silence on my little sister's part. poor thing didnt know wat to say. then she gave an abashed laugh and went "i can see her 'cuckoo bird'..." and THEN there was embarassed silence on my part as that girl looked at me for a translation. and i didnt know wat to say. the more anatomically knowledgable me knew that it wasnt REALLY a make genitia.l it was just her clitoris....and i just didnt know how to explain. eventually i just said "oh it's nothing" and went on playing with the poodles.

ah well. now nobody our age laughs at 'cuckoo bird' anymore cos we know very well it literally means a bird which says cuckoo. and somehow, it's for the worse cos the word to describe male genitials have just increased and somehow makes it much worse.

i'm not going to say it all out. u probably know wat they are. and i'm so sorry about the post on jordan. i'm not really supposed to complain about him. i just wrote it when i was cross. just dont take that seriously. bye

one of those days

oh poo....it's one of those days again...

u know when it starts amazing then just gets better and better and then crashes. shd have learnt like a long time ago that when things get better, they can only crash. but then again, sometimes i just get sooo high, i forget. and when it does crash down, it feels so much worse. oh well...

i really wanted to show u guys all the photos. but then jordan wouldnt let me use the labtop where all my beloved photos are. photos! dont worry! i'll come get u someday!!!

lol ;p

anway, watched battle royale with jordan and christine today. was kinda shaken up by it. and i think jordan guessed and he went "shuhao! dont cry!" and came over to hug me. i know this sounds disgusting but i had a little flashback of me and lance when we were in macritchie and still happy. and he was hugging me. just kinda saddened a little after that.

then came the whole please-jordan-can-i-have-ur-labtop thing again. and eventually with loads of persuading on auntie carol's part he turned it on. and i showed christine all the photos i took when i'm here. and then after she went, he took it awayyyy!! *wails* oh well..so now i'm here away from my photos using the other photo-less com. oh well...and i didnt even use that one..

dum de dum...

ok i think i'm going to stop now...just a little too sad. but i'll be fine.